Merry Christmas to all my readers!
I do have to apologize for my long absence.
I was going through some things and then something magical happened
I met someone and fell for him.
He did everything right and said the right things.
But…It was all an act.
He broke up with me because of a dream. He broke up with me one week before Christmas.
The dream was we were both in bed and I turn over. His back is facing me and as I reach out, the further and further he went until he disappeared. The room was also filled with a fog or mist.
We had lunch the day before the break up and I started tearing up. He asked why and I told him about the dream. He assured me that he wasn’t going anywhere. I felt better that day and we spent the rest of the day happy.
The next morning, THE BREAK UP.
We wake up at the same time and I turn over. HE is looking at me. I start to feel myself tearing up and I can’t help it. The tears fall and he asks why I am crying. I tell him about the dream. HE gets really upset and the whole morning turns to us crying and him thinking I don’t want to not be with him. He thinks I am not happy with him. I just tell him about the dream and about my fear of losing him. Finally he says we are done and that I had to leave. I told him I don’t want to but he goes on and say “I need to”. He says I need to find what makes me happy. He helps me bring all my things down to my car. Before we separate he tells me that I will always have a place in his heart and that he doesn’t want to lose me as a friend. He walks away and I pull to give him a hug. A long and tight hug because I didn’t want to let go.
I drive home, cry for an hour and a friend of mine texts me. I tell them about what happened and we meet to have a late lunch.
I drive by my ex-boyfriend’s place. and get a call from my friend and they ask me if I drove by. Just a note: MY friend is my ex-boyfriend’s neighbor.
My friend goes on to tell me that he saw my ex-boyfriend kissing another girl.
NOT EVEN 24 hours when we broke up and he had another girl over.
It tore me to pieces. My heart sank. I parked my car and I started crying. I never cried so hard. I never felt so betrayed in my life.
I felt like a fool.
He played me really good.
The day after the break-up, Monday, I am at work and it is also our christmas party. Everyone is happy and I am being positive and hiding all the sadness away.
He texts me “hi”. I totally ignore the message.
An hour later he texts and says. “SO you are going to ignore me now. Ok. I understand. I was trying to be nice. Goodbye then.”
Really? Why would he text me? What was the point?